Desire of my heart...

For those of you who don't know, I am STILL getting laid off in November from WaMu.

Let me fill you in on what's going on right now. About 5 weeks ago I got a call out of the blue for a job interview at SWBC (Southwest Business Corporation)for a supervisor position. (This alone was just a God thing. I had sent my resume to them back in April when I originally was getting laid off. The position at that time did not work out but the guy told me he would hold on to my resume and pass it around to people he knew.)

So, out of nowhere I get a phone call from SWBC back in July and the lady told me she had received a copy of my resume (thanks to that guy for passing it on to them!) and wanted to know if I was still looking for a job. Long story short, I went in for an interview, and a week later got called back for a second interview. I hadn't heard anything until I talked to them yesterday. They said the process is taking longer than expected. So, she doesn't know when they will have the decisions made but told me they'd be in touch by the end of next week.

All that being said, in the past 5 weeks, Steve and I have really prayed over this. I know that the Lord is telling me to wait and to FULLY trust in Him. At first, that's what I did. Then, as time went on, I started to worry and get anxious and have a constant battle in my mind about it. Finally, last week I had a break down in my mind and had to give it back to God... again! I am completely letting go of it. I know He's having me wait for a reason. It could be for SO MANY REASONS! I know that He's faithful and He's going to answer my prayer... even if it means the answer is "you didn't get the job".

Steve was getting ready one morning last week and Joyce Meyers was on TV. He DVR'd it for me so I could hear what she was saying. One thing that REALLY stuck out was about how I'm praying. I don't want to be praying for something because I want it. I used to say, "but it's the 'desire of my heart' and the Lord tells us to make our requests known to him". But, after hearing Joyce Meyers, it really hit me that I've been praying the wrong thing and I need to get "the desires of my heart" on the right track! I want the "desire of my heart" to be GOD'S WILL FOR MY LIFE! So, my prayer now is strictly "I want to be where you want me, Lord. And if this is where you want me, then I'm asking you to open the door and offer me that job. If it's not your will and not what you want for me, then I'm asking you to shut that door and have them turn me down." For now, the answer I'm getting from the Lord is "Wait! In my time I'll show you what I have for you"! So, that's what I'm doing. All the while, still praying for him to show me his will.

Sorry this is long and there are no pics or videos (I know those are always more entertaining), but just wanted to share my heart. Please be praying for me to continue to stay strong in the Lord and not get discouraged... even if the answer is "no".